I'm tired. Really, fucking tired. This doesn't end today, neither does it end tomorrow nor the day after. I still got fucking 1y6m to serve this shit hole. With you being in this condition, I doubt we'll pull through. I just pray all goes well. If this is causing you so fucking much misery, being envious of other people gf because they can have some stupid bear or some ocs fuck shit, fuck it. I'd rather you say you have no boyf so you won't even feel like this. Fuck, all I want is just a fucking simple, happy relationship. Does it have to be so fucking complicated. I'm that close to breaking down and switching off already.